Don't Give Up

Good and bad are of the mind.
The Heart on the right side is deeper and prior.
Forget about changing and improving yourself, the world, and others.
Use the ATMA VICHARA to keep bringing the mind back home to the Heart.
All directions the mind goes in are the wrong direction.
Devote the smallest, simplest acts and prayers to Bhagavan, in your Heart.
Offer Him your fears, faults, and sorrows.
Ask Him to purify and cleanse you of everything that blocks His love, light, peace and joy.
Ask Him to protect you.
Then someday, these thousands of " the tiniest offerings" will build up in the Heart, the knot will be dissolved, and like an overfilled pitcher, like a giant tsunami, an unspeakable LOVE will pour through you, dissolving you, the world, everything, the whole dream, in a Light and Love that the mind cannot conceive. The mind cannot help you here, as it must be dissolved.
"Who" you believe you are must be dissolved.
Just don't give up. Begin again, over and over and over.
Trust Him. He is in your Heart and He knows the way.